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ℬ𝑒𝓁𝓁𝑒𝓁𝓊𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒 ℳ𝑜𝒹𝓈 ([personal profile] lesmodsalouette) wrote2025-03-16 03:54 am

Graveyard

Graveyard

The garden is still sprawling and green – despite having entirely lost all its riotous flowers and colors, along with any sign of wildlife or birdsong – though one thing stands out more than anything else: from Monday to Thursday, you can’t see the castle anymore. All that remains where it once stood (or perhaps, usually stands) is an incongruously large tree that towers over everything else and somehow looks larger and more imposing than the castle ever did. The tree’s branches are bare, without any hint of life nor leaf – however, on the weekends (that is to say, Friday through Sunday) a faint projection of the castle appears around it, cradling the only things that the denizens of this alternate garden can see in detail from the other side: the flurry of activity around the investigation, the circus-like dimension that holds the trial, and the mirrors and the grassy dimension that display the execution.

For those curious what the land of the living are up to, a mirage-like and upside-down reflection of the castle garden in its original arrangement can be spotted occasionally overlaying the sky. This strange illusion may sometimes show those in the garden on the other side, flitting in and out of view like stray clouds; but much like the weather, their appearance is mercurial – they cannot be reached and cannot be heard.

Water, Flower, Everywhere
The fountains remain active somehow, though their features seem to have eroded, obscuring the identities of the deities and the wings of the birds, cracking pottery down into nothing but worn shards and handles. At night, only maybe half the lights work (and here they are real candlelight, rather than magical), plunging most of the garden into crepuscular darkness. The trellis walkway looks quite overgrown (mysteriously, bamboo is taking over), entirely covering some statues and other features along its length, and it’s no longer walkable – a miniature canal runs the whole length underneath the arches, feeding into other new waterways around the garden that cut off footpaths seemingly at random. There are small footbridges here and there, but the lack of logic to the whole arrangement makes falling into one of the streams or canals a real hazard.

The waterways do all manage to converge at the pond by the pavilion – neither of which are all that soothing or classical anymore. The pond is only half-full, and entirely lacks water lilies or any dragonflies; its banks sit jagged above the dark waters, and perhaps that’s why the pavilion, too, is half collapsed down into it all. Gone are the curtains and ivies; only dead curling vines and half-collapsed columns are left, but there’s still someplace to sit if you put your mind to it.

Most of the flowerbeds sit fallow or overtaken by weeds – there’s signs here and there that someone might have tried to clear them out, but the bulk of the effort seems to have gone to the orchard by the gardener’s cottage. It might be more accurate to say cottages, given that there are a few of them dotted around that area for some reason. None of them are locked, but all of them have only minimal furnishings apart from the original; they’re also all provided with the full complement of gardener’s tools. Next to them, there are new saplings and half-grown flowering trees: some pear and apple, but also some not. There are new shoots in the kitchen orchard that have just barely taken root, the dirt recently turned.


Hedge Maze(?)
The other most eye-catching feature is what once was an ornamental hedge maze: instead of being a tame height here, it has seemingly grown wild and completely unchecked, towering above the rest of the garden almost like its own overgrown mountain. The hedge walls go up and up and up, making it entirely impossible to see the center or even how far it goes despite the fact that sections of the hedges have also died, reduced to the branches underneath, bristling with interlocked thorns.

Part of it had even spilled over into the garden itself, huge gnarled branches spreading out like burnt-blackened fingers all the way to the edge of the pond – wherever the branches touch, even the greenery is withered, and any statues look more ruined than those in the rest of the area. As of the end of Week 3, however, the branches have retracted entirely and the way into the hedge maze has opened even more. However, there is now a storm brewing over what might be the center or the general area of it. Getting close to the hedge maze or any of the hedge(?) branches is... unpleasant, though it doesn’t usually go beyond a buzz of wrongness and a slight headache.


allrounder: (77)

suicidal ideation mention

[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-06 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He would be lying if he said that that thought didn't fill him with a spot of relief. There is a way out of this, should they so choose one. ]

I believe you have the right of it.

[ The way his body relaxes slightly is noticeable to Siffrin, and it's obvious that the thought brings some comfort. To say that that part of his soul wasn't relieved to leave his body in the First would be a complete lie. ]

Would you be able to? [ A pause. ] I suppose I do not need to know the answer right this very moment. 'Tis a long way away from where we are now.
diel: (051)

[personal profile] diel 2025-04-06 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Ugh! I said she was a boring idiot.

[ ok he never said idiot, but he’s editing that in right now to all of his past conversations. ]
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[personal profile] diel 2025-04-06 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yoru lets go and steps back over the line that divides his personal space and sariel’s. ]

Welcome Sariel to your temporary death. But don’t let that stop you from taking your time to adjust. There’s no rush.
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-06 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ A relief, huh. Death wasn't ever one for them. Just another tool to use. So it's... odd feel him relax at the idea.

...

(Would you?)

Siffrin sits up a little more, resting back on G'raha's lap (the arms that hold tight are still so nice, to you,) and he lifts his hands to cup the other's face. Small squishes of the cheeks. ]


It'll be a long, long, long time from now, if ever. I promise. I won't let you tire. I won't... even let you be bored. Even if that means, for the next century or five, you'll still be figuring me out.

[ (Because

they don't know if they could.) ]
diel: (053)

[personal profile] diel 2025-04-06 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ that’s nice. please keep playing with his fingers. what a cute little game. ]

I think maybe I… we… just love differently. It feels unconditional to me, I don’t really care what the people I love do.

[ it’s just how it is to him. ]

There isn’t a need to be enough because if I love you, you’re already enough to me and for me.

[ a small smile at siffrin. ]
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[personal profile] distain 2025-04-06 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
...

Living.

[She means, specifically, "not as a mortal," but the question in general is also something that she's been forced to ponder. What life looks like outside of the narrow bars that caged her in... She's not sure she ever fully left the Room of Atonement after she was born in it. Now she needs to know what that's supposed to mean.]
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-06 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ (... You think, or... you hope, that Raha feels the same.

It

kind of feels like it, through your talks, barbed and not. The way he tries. How he reaches regardless, though the moments he hasn't... have been better that he didn't. Still, still, he hasn't walked away.)

Their chest aches and a small smile fights its way up. ]


I can't say I understand it, but... I'm glad, if that's how love is for you. I hope someone feels that way about you too then.

[ The nuance is different; that this time, Siffrin hopes someone will view love the way Yoru views it and respond in kind. It sounds nice. Vibing in love. ]
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suicidal ideation

[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-06 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
There is much and more that can be said for boredom. Allow me to have that every so often.

[ He smiles, making their hands move a little bit with the movement of his face. ]

Indeed it will be a while yet from now. That is not to say I will not enjoy adventures to be had, Siffrin. Only that we know there can be an end to this journey when we see should fit to have it.

[ And if G'raha must be the one to destroy both of their items, then so be it. He can do that. ]
Edited 2025-04-06 23:43 (UTC)
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[personal profile] distain 2025-04-06 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
For better or for worse.

[She does wonder sometimes who "Andrew" really is. There have been so many different versions of her because people have seen her so very differently. What she is supposed to be feels far-off and eclipsed.]

And you're Sariel. Who likes rainbows, I think, if I'm remembering correctly.

[Remembering that she'd discussed the perfect sky with Hwylryn, she is filled once more with loathing. He hand clenches unconsciously in and out of a fist.]
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[personal profile] distain 2025-04-07 12:12 am (UTC)(link)
You did. And it's a good thing, since I don't really know how else this should go. Just asking questions about each other?

[She has got that neurodivergent anti-rizz about her, for lack of a better term, when it comes to holding a normal conversation that isn't steeped in dramatic proclamations or dwelling on complex philosophy or navel gazing. Holding a normal conversation is almost impossible for her, even if she's never really admitted it. There are so many things often taken for granted when you're good at behaving a certain way or playing a certain role to survive... but she's never really quite mastered small talk.

She thinks about the girl at the Christmas dance who kept blasting spittle in her face while they were talking. That had gone fine...but it had just been gossip.

Anyway, it keeps her silent for a little longer.
]
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[personal profile] distain 2025-04-07 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
After what we witnessed just a few hours ago, my confidence in their trust is at the bottom of a cliff.

[She's still having such a difficult time articulating it. Andrew experiences her emotions in extremes, even when she doesn't show them. They spike and run so furiously through her. Sabo sees the shaking, and she sees him seeing the shaking.]

Do you feel bad? For trying to save them? [After everything... does he feel the price of his life was given justly?]
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suicide ideation

[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ (... Boredom, fine. He can have that-- something about how sadness makes happiness sweeter, or whatever. You never cared for that. But there's still something that bothers you about it... besides any kind of end, maybe more what

oh

what'll cause it, maybe. Yeah. That feels right.)

Siffrin presses their palms harder against G'raha's face. Quiet, staring, as if trying to put the words in order. ]


... Raha, um. It shouldn't... be when we're tired, I think. That isn't good. When... we're content, is better.

[ Tired-- feels bad, to them. How can someone be tired of life? Tired of the same thing, over and over again, surely-- but it shouldn't... not like that, they think. They hope it comes across.

No, maybe content isn't right either? ]


I won't let you tire. [ Repeated, again. ] I want you to be satisfied instead. And then maybe I could do it. [ maybe. ] So you're smiling, not... languishing. Like a flower wilting on the vine.

[ Is such a clumsy way to put it, but. They're trying. Stars, they're trying. ]
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suicide ideation

[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ He looks at Siffrin, eyes widened in a way that indicates... surprise? Like he hadn't expected satisfaction to be the answer.

When they're both satisfied... it's not unlike the Ancients of Elpis, if what the Warrior of Light said about their predecessors is completely accurate. That gives him mixed feelings in and of itself, but it's a better way to look at all of this than a long unwinding, exhausting path with no end.

Like this, it feels more bearable. He looks up at Siffrin, unable to smile with the solid press of their palms to his cheeks, but there's a definite warmth in his eyes that wasn't there just a moment ago. ]


When you word it so poetically, the path ahead sounds less treacherous and winding.
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
... Well. I was told that I make things soft, so.

[ So maybe that. His hands loosen their hold, running through G'raha's hair and carefully over his ears instead. ]

I just didn't like it. That's all.
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[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ His ears flick. Watch it, buddy! They're sensitive! ]

Your perspective is healthier than my own. I believe you know why I carry those feelings with me, so I need not explain, however... ridding myself of them will be difficult.

[ A century of waiting and preparing and leading. He won't be doing that now, not at all, but still. The thought of it all weighs heavy nevertheless. ]

Perhaps you can soften that, too. As much as I despise asking you to carry my own baggage.
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
It's unfair if you try and take any of mine without trading, Raha.

[ Chiding!!! But... oh, heheh. Maybe skirting over his ears again. Playfully. ]

I don't have much of a past. So lemme have the parts that still cling to you. Okay?

[ Is that fair? ]
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[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah... it's a hard ask, and Siffrin is probably well aware of that. G'raha is good at dodging questions about himself and his past for the most part, unless he suddenly decides to divulge it for one reason or another.

It's why, even though Siffrin touches his ears again and it makes them flick and twitch involuntarily, he looks down. ]


...Alright. You may have it.

[ It's terrifying, letting someone else carry something of his. ]

Heed my warnings, however. I have much of it and it weighs heavily.
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
I guess. The people in Vaugarde don't really ask a lot of questions, they're... blindly accepting.

[ Welcoming and kind, in that naive way. So wonderful for the lost like himself.

They let the silence linger a moment, and then-- ]


We could practice, if you want. Since I'd like to learn how to be your friend too.
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Funny... Maybe it isn't a good sensitive, though, and so Siffrin combs through his hair normally before dropping once again against him. ]

That's fine. I like carrying things for you, Raha. Thoughts, burdens, torches...

[ Not that the last has applied for

two weeks now but. ]


I'll take all of it, all of you, no matter what. Because I like you.
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[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He tilts his head, leaning into the way Siffrin's fingers glide through his hair, and he finds himself surprised when they don't go for the ears again. ]

Even so, I fear it would burden you. You have much and more to worry about. Adding my own worries on top of it all... would it not tip all of it over?

[ It isn't that he doesn't think Siffrin can handle it. He does, but...

More than anything, he hates burdening someone else. ]
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
More like it'd be a welcome distraction. That's why you take on others' too, isn't it?

[ Gives him to think about something that isn't his own trouble, his own puzzles so frustrating to solve. ]
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[personal profile] antline 2025-04-07 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
For better or for worse.

[He repeats, though its more that he's saying it to himself. It feels comforting, somehow. For better. Or for worse, too.]

...The rainbow. [And now that makes him stare upwards, as if he can see it.] Not rainbows. Innnnnn general. But where he is. Deputy Head.
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[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He feels... called out, honestly. Siffrin is onto something with that, something that G'raha hasn't even properly examined for himself. ]

Well... 'tis part of the reason, if we were to be uncharitable.

[ Uncharitable but kind of correct. ]

I enjoy doing everything in my power to solve problems. I imagine it is a habit of mine that has carried over from childhood, when I would read heroic tales of an adventurer swooping in to solve a dilemma before leaving without repayment.

[ haha wow that's kind of like siffrin's story. anyway ]
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[personal profile] siffriend 2025-04-07 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Hm!!!!!! ]

That so, Raha?

[ With the start of a knowing, teasing tone. ]
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[personal profile] allrounder 2025-04-07 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ … ]

Ah.

[ He… hm. He really said that, didn't he? ]

Well, you see… um. [ His ears droop. ] I did enjoy your story.