... I'll never care about any of you as much as I do her.
[Just to be clear. Andrew doesn't actually know why she feels the need to admit it to Siffrin.
If things had been different, if she hadn't resolved to run through as many lung-crushing loops as she had to in order to reach the end of this ordeal, she might have killed if Herta was at risk of dying.
Darkly, she wonders if Herta would be jealous of how many people seem to care for her here, for some reason the way it sometimes pains her to see how other people make her laugh.]
But if my future was different...then maybe... [Could she learn to be surrounded by people, like Siffrin?]
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[Just to be clear. Andrew doesn't actually know why she feels the need to admit it to Siffrin.
If things had been different, if she hadn't resolved to run through as many lung-crushing loops as she had to in order to reach the end of this ordeal, she might have killed if Herta was at risk of dying.
Darkly, she wonders if Herta would be jealous of how many people seem to care for her here, for some reason the way it sometimes pains her to see how other people make her laugh.]
But if my future was different...then maybe... [Could she learn to be surrounded by people, like Siffrin?]