It twists his stomach, thinking of what the others must have gone through at seeing his body, all because he refused to defend himself. There was a reason why though—he didn't want Hwylryn to think it was okay to do what he did, and he didn't want to disrupt the peace that he had agreed to keep with Lili.
Bound by promises and knowledge, he was forced to bear it.
Even so... ]
No, it did not.
[ He thought of what was best for the situation and not beyond it, a habit that is difficult if not nearly impossible to break. ]
I am selfish, Andrew. Painfully so. I would much rather make those I care for see something like that than to see it for myself, than to know that they had gone through something so horrible.
[ There's a jagged edge to his voice, raw in a way he hasn't let her hear. These are his honest feelings. ]
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It twists his stomach, thinking of what the others must have gone through at seeing his body, all because he refused to defend himself. There was a reason why though—he didn't want Hwylryn to think it was okay to do what he did, and he didn't want to disrupt the peace that he had agreed to keep with Lili.
Bound by promises and knowledge, he was forced to bear it.
Even so... ]
No, it did not.
[ He thought of what was best for the situation and not beyond it, a habit that is difficult if not nearly impossible to break. ]
I am selfish, Andrew. Painfully so. I would much rather make those I care for see something like that than to see it for myself, than to know that they had gone through something so horrible.
[ There's a jagged edge to his voice, raw in a way he hasn't let her hear. These are his honest feelings. ]